The Gift in the Poison

I was the second of seven children and the first daughter born into a faithful Mormon family. My upbringing was rooted in spirit, structure, and tradition—but my path from the beginning was anything but ordinary.
 
At just six weeks old, I began violently projectile vomiting. By three and a half months, I was having seizures. My mom, trusting her instincts, rushed me to the hospital. In a stroke of divine timing, a British doctor happened to be on staff—someone who had seen this rare condition before.
 

I was diagnosed with Neurogenic Laryngeal Stridor Seizures—a rare and unusual neurological condition. At the time, I was only the eighth documented case.

 

The treatment? A controversial one: Belladonna—a hallucinogen and a poison. My mom was mortified. She had to give her baby toxic drops, terrified she might kill me… but convinced that not giving them would mean losing me anyway. It was an impossible decision—but it worked. I survived. I healed. I grew out of the condition.

But some say I grew into something else entirely.

My parents believe that moment—the belladonna, the brink-of-death experience—opened a gateway. That it somehow thinned the veil between this world and the next and allowed me to access the unseen from a very young age.

And honestly? Even as a kid, I had a thing for the mystical and the mind-bending… so it tracks that I grew up to love psychedelics, too 🍄. Let’s just say the universe gave me a head start.

 

 

Consciousness: Science, Spirit & Connection

 

🧠 Neuroscience: The Brain as Receiver

For decades, science has sought the “seat of consciousness” within the brain. Yet research — and even modern literature like Dan Brown’s Secrets of the Secrets — suggests something radical:

  • The brain may not create consciousness, but instead receives and filters it, like an antenna.
  • Consciousness could exist beyond the skull, woven into the very fabric of the universe itself.
  • This model explains why trauma, near-death, or altered brain states often open people to expanded awareness.

 

🌌 Philosophy & Oneness

Across traditions and philosophies, consciousness has been described as a shared field of oneness:

  • Every individual mind is a “channel” tuning into a universal broadcast.
  • Separation is an illusion; at the deepest level, we are already connected.
  • Consciousness is non-local and limitless, extending beyond time, space, and even death.

 

🔮 My Story & My Work

For me, this isn’t just theory — it’s personal.

  • At just 3 ½ months old, I had seizures and was treated with belladonna. What could have been a purely medical experience became the gateway to my intuitive gifts.
  • That early neurological event shifted how my brain “receives,” opening me to frequencies of consciousness most people don’t realize they can access.
  • Today, as an evidential medium, medical intuitive, and investigative consultant, I tune into that shared field of awareness to bring through evidence, healing, and connection.

 

✨ Why This Matters

Understanding consciousness as something greater than the brain changes everything:

  • It validates experiences of intuition, mediumship, and communication with the afterlife.
  • It reframes trauma or early neurological events as potential gateways to expanded awareness.
  • It offers hope that our loved ones — and our own essence — are part of a larger field that never ends.

Consciousness is not a puzzle to solve, but a field to remember. My work is about helping you step into that remembrance — where healing, evidence, and connection are always possible.